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# Feelings of Separation

<mark style="color:red;">**\[**</mark>[<mark style="color:red;">**14.1-14.16**</mark>](https://vedabase.io/en/library/cc/antya/14/)<mark style="color:red;">**]**</mark>

For the final twelve years of Sri Caitanya’s manifest pastimes, He remained secluded in the Gambhira, the garden house of Kasi Mishra. The Lord merged into a deep spiritual communion, obsessed day and night in thought of Krishna. This esoteric phenomenon is described by Krishnadasa: '*When Sri Caitanya Mahaprabhu felt separation from Krishna, His condition exactly corresponded to that of the gopis in Vrindavana after Krishna’s departure for Mathura. Sri Caitanya Mahaprabhu’s emotions exactly corresponded to those of Srimati Radharani when She met Uddhava in Vrindavana.'* [*\[61\]*](#user-content-fn-1)[^1]

<mark style="color:red;">**During these years, Sri Caitanya was surrounded by a few intimate associates, headed by Svarupa Damodara and Ramananda Raya. These two personalities are Lalita and Vishakha, the intimate confidantes of Srimati Radharani in Krishna-lila. Svarupa and Ramananda would enhance the ecstatic mood of the Lord by singing appropriate songs and reciting select verses. Sri Caitanya Mahaprabhu especially liked to hear Bilvamangala Thakura’s Krishna-karnamrita, the poetry of Vidyapati, and Sri Gita-govinda, by Jayadeva Goswami.**</mark> [*<mark style="color:red;">**\[62\]**</mark>*](#user-content-fn-2)[^2]

<mark style="color:red;">**Sri Caitanya’s ecstasy resulted in bodily transformations and delirious behaviour which resembled that of a madman. He would sometimes catch hold of the necks of His associates and plead '**</mark>*<mark style="color:red;">**My dear friends, please listen to Me. What shall I do? Where shall I go? Where can I go to get Krishna? Please, both of you, tell Me how I can find Him.'**</mark>* [*<mark style="color:red;">**\[63\]**</mark>*](#user-content-fn-3)[^3] <mark style="color:red;">**In this way, Sri Caitanya exhibited the intense longing of a pure devotee.**</mark>

[^1]: [Antya-Lila 14.12](https://vedabase.io/en/library/cc/antya/14/12/)-[13](https://vedabase.io/en/library/cc/antya/14/13/)

[^2]: [Antya-Lila 15.27](https://vedabase.io/en/library/cc/antya/15/27/)

[^3]: [Antya-Lila 15.24](https://vedabase.io/en/library/cc/antya/15/24/)